I’ve been debating for a while now weather or not I should discontinue my blog. Lately I don’t really feel like I’ve gone where I thought this would go. I’ve been reworking Alone 1 and just don’t feel like I can fix it. I don’t think I can make it worth anything. I don’t feel that I am good at writing, so why should I bother? I’ve said before this has been just for fun, that I never expected to get published. Well now I see that I probably have a snowballs chance in hell at becoming a “real” writer so I don’t know if I should even continue. I’ve wasted countless hours writing that could have been spent on getting IT certifications that could help me advance my career.
Two roads diverged… did I take the stupid one? Should I have played the responsible adult and worked harder at getting a job that doesn’t suck? Instead of indulging in my fantasy of becoming a writer?
Bah, I know I’m whining but I haven’t written anything good in quite a while. I sat down today and had nearly two straight hours where I could have written to my hearts content. Nothing came out. I looked at rewriting Alone 1 nothing. Adding to Alone 2 nothing. Adding to Lambs nothing. I don’t even think I’d call it a block rather a complete lack of anything to say.
I think I’ve been a fool. Ever since I started writing Monster Hunter International fan fiction. Seriously it must be some kind of sick joke I’ve been telling myself to keep writing. My characters are flat and lack depth. My ideas are dull, and plots contrived. How can I fix it? I don’t think I can.